In just a few short weeks, I’ll be celebrating the 9th anniversary of my 10 year relationship ending. Why the celebration? Well without it, I wouldn’t be where I’m at today. It sent me into a spiral of self reflection, self discovery, and most importantly healing of the self.

Yes this is mainly a photography blog/website, and for the past year or so I've been focusing more on my photographic captures than my intimate writing. Why? The intimacy of my words resonate with a few, while the beauty of my photographs relate to the many. I haven't written deeply in a while, because life has been good. Deep words come in transitional times, and right now I once again find myself in somewhat of a transitional time. So no pretty photographs this time around, just a collection of heartfelt words. 

It's January the 13th, 2023, and for the past week or so my emotions have overtaken me. Like an avalanche cascading down the side of a mountain, grief, fear, and questions have come crashing down. It's a slide that swallows me up from time to time, but one in which I've learned to ride. 

Recently I needed some time away from instagram, which in reality wasn’t even instagrams fault, but my own inefficiency to see my own self worth. It’s something that always lurked in the background, but I always pushed it away and continued to do my thing. What is it that exactly set me off? I wouldn’t say it was just one thing, but a combination of many. I’ve been wanting to pull away from instagram for some time, but continued to post because I felt like I needed to. I needed to keep up, because without content, then what would it all be worth?

During the many seasons of my self love journey, I spent numerous days meandering the New Jersey coastline..

In the moment, goodbyes are always the hardest. A once blossoming relationship coming to an end, your beloved pet taking their last breath while resting gently upon your arm, or a close relative passing away can all cause an immense amount of grief